Day one of no sugar... and Day one of no sugar.

My steps this week... 

Monday: 7576

Tuesday: 9055

Wednesday: 8911

Thursday: 7395

Friday: 8498

Not one day of over 10,000. LAME! I could get those extra 2000, in some cases, by walking to the train station instead of taking the bus that's MUCH closer to the boy's house. 

My steps last week... 

Monday: 7917

Tuesday: 5557

Wednesday:15,554

Thursday: 6077

Friday: 7649

So I have increased my average, but I haven't crossed that 10,000 line. I did get 26 flights of stairs today though. I've exceeded 10 flights of stairs every day. 

Food... 

Let's talk about food. 

Day one of no sugar was such a fail. I had a smoothie that I thought was made from the plain greek yogurt. Boyfriend used the french vanilla... sugar. 

I had lunch with coworkers and forgot the challenge completely. I had a chicken salad sandwich... and then we had cake to celebrate a coworkers birthday... and then they ordered lemon pie too...   I helped along with that. fail fail. 

Got home and then boyfriend and I made nice wraps (sugar) and I didn't even think of the sugar content. Then we had a little ice cream. SUGAR. 

So Maybe it wasn't a fail. Maybe it was an eye opener. 

Today I tried again. 

Breakfast: egg muffin

Lunch: seaweed salad. 

Dinner: the insides of 2 chicken tacos... and the toppings off a really amazing nacho plate. 

Sweet craving: raspberries... and a bite of the balsamic salad that bf has in the kitchen right now. 

Today I succeeded. Tomorrow I add no sugar + green smoothie. 

Big Fat Love, 

Nanette 

I Owe You...

A post for yesterday!

Goal: 10,000 steps
Actual: 9,600 steps

I'm getting closer. I have about a 3,000 step debt to myself that I still would like to catch up on.

A good friend of mine introduced me to Betty Rocker a couple weeks ago. And I bought into the membership only stuff... I know, I know, I can do it for free. I just like that she even plans out the meal prep, like what order to prepare your stuff in and full grocery lists. I need easy right now.

But this week is a 5 day challenge that builds on itself.

Day one (today): No added sugar.
Day two: No added sugar + green smoothie
Day three: No added sugar + green smoothie + 100oz of water
Day four: No added sugar + green smoothie + 100oz of water + pack all your food for the day (no buying).
Day five: No added sugar + green smoothie + 100oz of water + pack your food + Make a new recipe.

I've done stuff like this before. It worked then, it should be a little easier this time around. So here we are today.. day one, no added sugar. I'm excited for day five. I found a really good recipe for raspberry french toast that has no added sugar, and no gluten.

Breakfast: smoothie (rasp, blueberries, strawberries, plain yogurt, dash of vanilla).
Lunch: TBD
Dinner: TBD.

AND I'll get back here to post... with my updated steps for the day. 1483 so far (pathetic).

Big Fat Gonna Get Moving Love,
Nanette

SUSHI!!!

Goal: 10,000 Steps.
Today: 9,005 Steps. (Hey, I still have an hour of wandering around the house).

I was pretty active today. Just sorta running errands and etc.

Food
Breakfast : egg + veggie muffins (no actual muffin, mini quiche?) 60 calories.
Lunch: Tuna salad on an English Muffin, 380 calories.
Dinner: All you can eat sushi, one bajillion calories.

So yeah... maybe all you can eat anything is a bad idea. I am full beyond comfort. And dang was it delicious. Boyfriend loves the place. So we will be returning. Next time, He can get all you can eat sushi and I will get a seaweed salad (a new favorite) and sashimi (sushi minus the rice). It'll probably be cheaper.

Tomorrow's goal:

1. 10,000 steps, 
2. go swimming in the pool or do 30 min on the elliptical, 
3. log my food into my fitnesspal 
4. write another blog. 

Big Fat Love, 

Nanette

The Recent Effort...

Okay.

Last month I worked out 4x a week for 4 weeks and earned a fitbit from my little challenge.

This month, I aimed for 5x a week for 4 weeks. I did it for 2 weeks and then bombed. Now I'm at the boyfriend's house... with a gym IN THE BUILDING. I did the elliptical yesterday.

Despite my obvious lack of dedicated workout, this fitbit is a great thing.. It has a really great way of tracking daily activity. There are days when I am all over the place and have a bunch of steps and the activity score is through the roof. My fatigue by the end of those days feels justified. P.s. I climb so many stairs every day. Over 10 flights consistently... every day. The subways, I tell you... they give you a great slow and quiet workout.

I am logging my food more consistently.

I am living sort of at the boyfriend's place. Away from my scale. So I have a month of no weigh ins.

I am fatter these days. Funny how that works... the more you semi-concentrate on weight without fully committing, the faster you gain weight. And funny how not caring and sorta just eating what is enough and not thinking about food every waking second, the longer you can maintain and not gain. Drives me freaking nuts.

My weight is shifting around my body... my legs are slimming (all that NY walking)... more lumps around my middle. Funny how stress shifts things. And sedentary lifestyle or different types of foods collect in different areas.

My successes recently... walking more every day. Going further before getting on the subway on my way home. On my fitbit, I am trying to hit 10,000 steps every day. The average person does 5,000... Average... like the average family is 2.5 kids. Just a number. But it's a good baseline. When I started with the fitbit, I felt good when I hit 5,000 steps...

5000 steps was my starting average.
7,892 steps now - lifetime average.

Here we are Monday... perfect day for setting a goal.
10,000 steps a day.
Track calories every day.
Write on this blog every day.

Also, I'm considering getting lapband. I need the reminder. Food control too often slips to the back of my mind when I'm presented with food. And let's be real, I want to lose some of this weight quicker so that working out is easier, less stressful on my back and knees. I know it's not a quick or easy fix. I also know that it doesn't mean I have a free pass to eat whatever I want. Waiting for my insurance to kick in... then I'll consult a physician about it... and then I'm sure I have to do a special diet before hand, nutrition counseling, psych eval and then maybe, the actual procedure. I've been speaking to some of my friends who have acquired one... One is pregnant and has lapband, the other got it her first year in college, etc, etc. They are both my age and similar sizes. I'm technically more healthy and have had more success with losing my weight on my own.

This just in... I told boyfriend that I'm fat blogging again. He's happy for me. We're talking about a celebration for when I lose 100lbs. (down to 220lbs)...  Apparently there are some really great roller coasters out here... disney world? Hershey, PA has good ones... Six flags... I told him we should do something I couldn't do while fat. Fly somewhere, scuba dive, roller coasters, buy a shirt in a regular store... I dunno... anything really.

Big Fat Love,
Nanette

P.S. Where I've been and How Largely...

Most Recently - In the ocean at Coney Island. 

Going Away Parties With Friends

Outside of Kidville Carroll Gardens with the gal pals. 

Realizing it turned into a no scooter zone at the NYC google offices. 

Picnic with friends underneath the Manhattan Bridge. 

Regain.

Hey guys!

Stuck with the low carb thing for a couple of weeks and worked off the vacation weight...  

Then didn't keep track for a while, but kept going to the gym...

Then went to a wedding weekend that was all food all the time.

Hit my highest regain weight at 330lbs. Freaked out... again.. Still? That was last week after the wedding/boozefest 2013

Been in touch with my cousin and we're doing emails back and forth. We've got a challenge going where if we both meet our goals this month consistently, we buy each other a fit bit. My goal is a month of going to the gym 4x a week. She's going to the gym 3x a week.

Week one has been a success. I really want a Fit Bit... It's a little pedometer that monitors your sleep cycles, flights of stairs climbed, calories burned and of course, steps.

This week I've done about an hour on the elliptical, an hour on the bikes and about an hour of weight lifting (mostly upper body to balance out the cardio/resistance on lower body). I'm seeing the numbers go down accordingly. I'm down to 327.

I don't trust it though. 3lbs? That's a decent sized poop and that's about it. So I'm going to try and refrain from weighing in all the time and driving myself crazy. And see what the damage is at the end of the month.

I am not restricting my eating in anyway... I'm not tracking calories. I'm just trying to eat more veggies and eat more consistently throughout the day. I'm also drinking a lot more water. Summer is here and the sweating is on. I know I won't last a minute trying to workout while dehydrated. Not to mention the retention and inflammation that happen with dehydration.

And this is me on a boat at the wedding.

I'm pretty insecure about that photo. I feel like a total butterball. When it's bigger you can see all the cellulite and dimples of the pudge. Seeing the positive... I got in a boat. No fear of tipping it over. No size fear of sinking it. I just got in and went. Also, it was a great 2 hours of exercise. 

Big Fat Love, 

Nanette

Still Alive

and my silence hasn't been indulgent!

Down to 309.

Switching jobs again.

It's all gooooood! Sticking to moderately low carb (80g) and drinking lots more water.

Also reducing how much dairy I eat.

Big Fat Quick Update,
Nanette

Day 3 - Low Carb

Today I am 318

The low carb thing is paying off! I failed a little today. Boyfriend had some sweet potato fries. But I'm still under 50g of carbs. I'm trying to drink a glass of water every time I feel snacky... and distract myself with something else before I finish it. 

Lately, I've been distracting myself with this... 

I'm trying to envision what I eat per week...   like a week worth of breakfast looks like what? 
A week worth of lunch? Dinner?   

I also love seeing people stripped down to their undies and then being told how much they weigh. I really don't understand how large I am in comparison to others. I don't know if I'm bigger in my head... thinner? I'm pretty big in my mind. When I see a subway seat and wonder if I can fit there, the answer is usually no. I don't want to bother anyone else with my size. But other times, I feel so much smaller... like in bed with the bf, or at my apartment, or in the bathtub. Hell, even standing in front of a mirror naked...   It's like a different brand of body dismorphia. I certainly don't look thin... It's just difficult to grasp HOW large. 

Low Carb has really cut my caloric intake. Even though I'm eating things like... bacon, and peanut butter and avocados, It's replacing the other calorically dense things like bread and sugar. 

I'm looking forward to the morning weigh ins as I've been lower and lower each time. I'm dreading the day that stops. Until then...  I shall continue my efforts to keep carbs between 40-50g. 

Big Fat Supersized vs. Superskinny Love, 
Nanette