Weigh in: 310.2 (-.2)
Water: not enough.
Workouts: not enough.
etc. etc. etc...
Been working my face off this past week planning and negotiating and scheduling... AAAAnnnnnd.. dun-da-da-dunnnn!
I've been promoted to full time at Kidville. I will have 40 hours a week at a higher wage.
This means. No more 60 hour work weeks. No more doctor's office with the accidental penis pictures, or never recovering patients, or watching a "nutritionist" trying to make exorbitant amounts of money off of the ill health of others.
I write my two week notice tomorrow... and then I will be on to having an additional 20 hours a week for my own pursuits. I did the books and it looks like I'll be able to pay all my bills and my debts off by this upcoming december (student loans, aside) and the current relationship is good.
20 additional hours a week means I will be HOME by 6 or 7 every night and I will have two days off a week... IN A ROW. It means that I can spend more time cooking and shopping for healthy eating... no more excuses about stress and running late and needing to order in. And no more "too busy" excuses when it comes to fitness and exercise.
I've been doing my PT exercises and I feel like my quad is getting stronger. I'm going to continue the PT stuff until I get done with this 60 hour a week stuff and get back down to 40 hours a week. Then get my jiggling bits in more motion.
Hard work is paying off and building a lifestyle that can support and maintain healthy choices. (I believe it, and if I say it enough, it will come true).
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Self Challenge and The Upside.
Woof. Late again.
Weigh in: 310.4 (+2.8)
Water: 150 oz 2/7
Tracking: 2/7
Workouts: 3 hours of extra walking + PT knee exercises.
This week hasn't been particularly crazy. It's been TOM and I'm probably going to spend the next 3 days peeing my face off (AKA: retained water). I'm not super worried about the gain.
I have been cooking at home every day. Lots of salad. Lots of chicken breasts. Lots of veggies. I've been packing my lunches for work and everything. Health-wise, I'm eating much more nutritiously than I was before.
The last time I ate out was wednesday. (No ordering in this week at all!) I have a standing dinner date on Wednesdays with a friend. I wouldn't even say that it was a calorie overload. Octopus salad and a glass of sangria.
I can't even be down about the whole up on the scale thing. So many great things have happened this week... Confrontation with the boss who flashed the entire office (on accident, love dropbox automatic uploader)... We aired all the dirty laundry. I was able to tell him that I'm on the verge of quitting if things don't change. Which, I'm probably going to leave anyway and help my friend get a job there so they can build their resume and move on to bigger and brighter things.
I was put into the new location at the other job (the one that's going to put me full time and I'm going to quit the crappy aforementioned job anyway). It will have it's challenges, but I know that I'm supported by my staff and friends. The new location was owned and run by corporate, now it's becoming a franchise. I'm 100% franchise trained and the other manager is 100% corporate trained so we're going to both be doing some compromising. I kinda look forward to the challenge of getting us both onto the same page. (I may regret that statement later).
Things are good with the boy right now. He's sick. But he's consistent still. A phone call every night. Time together every Tuesday. He'll hopefully be getting a job with the doc. Then getting his own apartment (Rent prices in the city, I really don't blame him for living at home during college). And then we can move forward as grown ups in a relationship.
Big Fat Good Spirited Love,
Nanette
Weigh in: 310.4 (+2.8)
Water: 150 oz 2/7
Tracking: 2/7
Workouts: 3 hours of extra walking + PT knee exercises.
This week hasn't been particularly crazy. It's been TOM and I'm probably going to spend the next 3 days peeing my face off (AKA: retained water). I'm not super worried about the gain.
I have been cooking at home every day. Lots of salad. Lots of chicken breasts. Lots of veggies. I've been packing my lunches for work and everything. Health-wise, I'm eating much more nutritiously than I was before.
The last time I ate out was wednesday. (No ordering in this week at all!) I have a standing dinner date on Wednesdays with a friend. I wouldn't even say that it was a calorie overload. Octopus salad and a glass of sangria.
I can't even be down about the whole up on the scale thing. So many great things have happened this week... Confrontation with the boss who flashed the entire office (on accident, love dropbox automatic uploader)... We aired all the dirty laundry. I was able to tell him that I'm on the verge of quitting if things don't change. Which, I'm probably going to leave anyway and help my friend get a job there so they can build their resume and move on to bigger and brighter things.
I was put into the new location at the other job (the one that's going to put me full time and I'm going to quit the crappy aforementioned job anyway). It will have it's challenges, but I know that I'm supported by my staff and friends. The new location was owned and run by corporate, now it's becoming a franchise. I'm 100% franchise trained and the other manager is 100% corporate trained so we're going to both be doing some compromising. I kinda look forward to the challenge of getting us both onto the same page. (I may regret that statement later).
Things are good with the boy right now. He's sick. But he's consistent still. A phone call every night. Time together every Tuesday. He'll hopefully be getting a job with the doc. Then getting his own apartment (Rent prices in the city, I really don't blame him for living at home during college). And then we can move forward as grown ups in a relationship.
Big Fat Good Spirited Love,
Nanette
Monday, February 11, 2013
Self Challenge Check In...
Weight: 308 (-1.1)
Water: 150 oz 5/7 days.
Workouts: PT exercises every day. + 2 hours of extra walking.
Tracking: 5/7 days.
I've still been bummed out about everything. I talked to the PT in our doc office after I sprained my ankle and she asked what kind of exercises I like doing. I told her about my workouts of choice. The fast HIIT stuff. 50 seconds of squats, 50 seconds of lunges on one leg, then the next. Stuff like that. She had me show her. Aside from a form correction on the squats, they were good. She had me lay down and was feelin' around my knees and ankles and stuff. Apparently, my quad on the left side is weakened and has left my kneecap to float about. That's causing some wear and tear on the cartilage... which could potentially lead to knee surgery.
So she gave me some non-weight bearing exercises to do to build muscle. I should be back in better shape there shortly. She also recommended swim workouts - which is probably why I was able to do all the stuff I was doing before. Thank god for Aquacise back in Idaho or else I could have really screwed things up.
On the GOOD side of things...
I'm SO close to only working one job. 40 hours a week. Two day weekends. My boss talked to me about it... I'm thinking it may be like... one more month or so. Before May.
No more 60 hour weeks!!! It's so close! I can taste it! And I think they may have a gym thing as a benefit. Which would be great... I've started shopping around for places with a pool.
Didn't get a fasting day in. Didn't go to an OA meeting. Just been running on empty.
Trying again this week...
Goals
Track Calories EVERY DAY. 100%.
Do one fasting day.
Keep doing PT stuff.
Big Fat LOOKING FORWARD Love,
Nanette
Water: 150 oz 5/7 days.
Workouts: PT exercises every day. + 2 hours of extra walking.
Tracking: 5/7 days.
I've still been bummed out about everything. I talked to the PT in our doc office after I sprained my ankle and she asked what kind of exercises I like doing. I told her about my workouts of choice. The fast HIIT stuff. 50 seconds of squats, 50 seconds of lunges on one leg, then the next. Stuff like that. She had me show her. Aside from a form correction on the squats, they were good. She had me lay down and was feelin' around my knees and ankles and stuff. Apparently, my quad on the left side is weakened and has left my kneecap to float about. That's causing some wear and tear on the cartilage... which could potentially lead to knee surgery.
So she gave me some non-weight bearing exercises to do to build muscle. I should be back in better shape there shortly. She also recommended swim workouts - which is probably why I was able to do all the stuff I was doing before. Thank god for Aquacise back in Idaho or else I could have really screwed things up.
On the GOOD side of things...
I'm SO close to only working one job. 40 hours a week. Two day weekends. My boss talked to me about it... I'm thinking it may be like... one more month or so. Before May.
No more 60 hour weeks!!! It's so close! I can taste it! And I think they may have a gym thing as a benefit. Which would be great... I've started shopping around for places with a pool.
Didn't get a fasting day in. Didn't go to an OA meeting. Just been running on empty.
Trying again this week...
Goals
Track Calories EVERY DAY. 100%.
Do one fasting day.
Keep doing PT stuff.
Big Fat LOOKING FORWARD Love,
Nanette
Monday, February 4, 2013
Late Check In... Self Challenge
Weight: 309.1 (+1.3)
Water: no idea.
Walking/Workouts: 4.5 hours of walking
Tracking: 3/7 days. Lame.
Been a turd about accountability this week. Everything was going golden then I sprained my ankle and used it as an excuse to be lazy and eat-y. Stupid. But true.
Having a hard time not being ridiculously grumpy. Not sure if I'm PMS-ing. I don't think it is. I think it's a repercussion of working too much (54 hours a week + 13 hours of commute) and the recent undoing of all my progress on paying off personal debt. Alas... flexibility is the sign of positive mental health. Roll with change, Nanette.
Didn't make it to an OA meeting. I'm still really halfway in the door on that one. Having a hard time committing. I'm intimidated by it, really. Again, time to buck up and just do it. What are am I afraid of? Admitting my problems to myself... being ready to face them... etc. etc. etc.
New week. New problems to face.
GOALS
150 oz of water daily
Track Calories
One day of fasting.
Big Fat Mildly Depressed Love,
Nanette N.
Water: no idea.
Walking/Workouts: 4.5 hours of walking
Tracking: 3/7 days. Lame.
Been a turd about accountability this week. Everything was going golden then I sprained my ankle and used it as an excuse to be lazy and eat-y. Stupid. But true.
Having a hard time not being ridiculously grumpy. Not sure if I'm PMS-ing. I don't think it is. I think it's a repercussion of working too much (54 hours a week + 13 hours of commute) and the recent undoing of all my progress on paying off personal debt. Alas... flexibility is the sign of positive mental health. Roll with change, Nanette.
Didn't make it to an OA meeting. I'm still really halfway in the door on that one. Having a hard time committing. I'm intimidated by it, really. Again, time to buck up and just do it. What are am I afraid of? Admitting my problems to myself... being ready to face them... etc. etc. etc.
New week. New problems to face.
GOALS
150 oz of water daily
Track Calories
One day of fasting.
Big Fat Mildly Depressed Love,
Nanette N.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Something's Afoot.
I've been getting the hour of walking in a day. Yesterday I got lost. Went above and beyond. Also tripped in a damned pothole on a cobble stone street and sprained my ankle. At least, I hope it's just a sprain. There's not a whole lot of swelling. Some movement restriction. Slight bruising. I'm thinking I need an x-ray.
I am obsessed with breaking my feet/ankles. I broke one of the bones mid-foot when I started college and it put me in a freakin' cast/boot for more than half a semester. I'm very careful on stairs now. And any small injury is pretty bleak in my head. So I'm probably blowing this out of proportion. But I'm still going to get an x-ray. Because when I broke one of the mid-foot bones, I was able to let it heal without surgery because I didn't walk around on it and disturb the fracture. I am about 25% worried.
Also, yesterday I fell into a pit of carbs. As far as calories are concerned, I was probably just over 2000. (I had dinner at a restaurant with my friend Laura, so the count is not really precise). So the number isn't terrible, but the quality of those calories.. not the greatest.
So yesterday was a fail on the eating. Today is going to be much better. Started off with a bunch of cherry tomatoes (one of my favorite health foods)... packed my lunch today tuna salad. Going to go home for dinner and make chicken cutlet/ feta/spinach pitas.
I haven't made it to an OA meeting yet. But I still have until Sunday... maybe a Friday night date with myself.
Big Fat X-Ray Love,
Nanette
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Self Challenge and a Techno wave
Weight: 307.8 (-2.5) GOOD FREAKIN' MORNING!
Water: no idea.
Work outs: 1 yoga session, 10 squats every morning and all the walking and stairs that go with being a New Yorker.
No Going Out/In: 7/7 days!!! 100%.
No Breads: 4/7 days.
Okay. So I can easily affiliate the number on the scale with how much I've been ordering out/in.
A big no-duh, right? Well, sometimes if you're obstinate, you have to figure it out the hard way. And I would say I didn't even cook that clean or healthily. Burgers without bread. Homemade chicken pizzas on pitas. Black bean and veg burritos. A huge salad here and there. In the morning, Q'ia or a small protein shake w/ hazelnut milk.
I've created my weekly grocery shopping template - and only buy when I run out.
Shopping List...
Q'ia
Vanilla Shake
Hazelnut milk
Apples
Spinach or kale... something green and leafy, preferably on sale.
Shredded carrots
Cucumbers
Baby tomatoes
Sprouts.
Boiled eggs (buying 'em fresh obviously).
Oranges or kiwis or berries depending on sales.
Protein bar (from doc's office).
Meats - chicken cutlets, small steaks, pork chops (morton williams)
Cheeses - Shredded/crumbled Feta, Pecorino Romano, Mozzarella, or Parmesan.
Cottage Cheese
String cheese
Fresh Garlic
Basil Red Sauce or pesto sauce.
Black beans.
Pitas.
Peanut butter
Yeah... there's space for trimming that back to an even healthier list. Good room to grow. It's definitely better and more affordable than the Order In Every Other Night Diet.
Despite my reservations, I'm going to attend an Over-eaters Anon meeting this upcoming week. Because I seriously need a social life aside from my roommates and the boys I've dated... and because I have a serious issue with food, emotions, control and satiety. I have a hard time with the 12 step idea. Because as much as it says it's not a religious thing, it's constantly referring to Higher Power... etc. etc. etc. Due my naturally contrary nature, I can see that being an obstacle. Also, I'm deeply NOT a spiritual person. It's a thing.
On the only-sort-relevant-to-weight-loss front...
So I'm riding a new technology wave. Do you guys have any favorite apps? C25k? Runtracker?
THIS WEEK...
7 hours of walking (1 hour per day hopefully).
Track Calories
Big Fat Walk It Off Love,
Nanette
Water: no idea.
Work outs: 1 yoga session, 10 squats every morning and all the walking and stairs that go with being a New Yorker.
No Going Out/In: 7/7 days!!! 100%.
No Breads: 4/7 days.
Okay. So I can easily affiliate the number on the scale with how much I've been ordering out/in.
WHEN I COOK, I LOSE WEIGHT.
A big no-duh, right? Well, sometimes if you're obstinate, you have to figure it out the hard way. And I would say I didn't even cook that clean or healthily. Burgers without bread. Homemade chicken pizzas on pitas. Black bean and veg burritos. A huge salad here and there. In the morning, Q'ia or a small protein shake w/ hazelnut milk.
I've created my weekly grocery shopping template - and only buy when I run out.
Shopping List...
Q'ia
Vanilla Shake
Hazelnut milk
Apples
Spinach or kale... something green and leafy, preferably on sale.
Shredded carrots
Cucumbers
Baby tomatoes
Sprouts.
Boiled eggs (buying 'em fresh obviously).
Oranges or kiwis or berries depending on sales.
Protein bar (from doc's office).
Meats - chicken cutlets, small steaks, pork chops (morton williams)
Cheeses - Shredded/crumbled Feta, Pecorino Romano, Mozzarella, or Parmesan.
Cottage Cheese
String cheese
Fresh Garlic
Basil Red Sauce or pesto sauce.
Black beans.
Pitas.
Peanut butter
Yeah... there's space for trimming that back to an even healthier list. Good room to grow. It's definitely better and more affordable than the Order In Every Other Night Diet.
Despite my reservations, I'm going to attend an Over-eaters Anon meeting this upcoming week. Because I seriously need a social life aside from my roommates and the boys I've dated... and because I have a serious issue with food, emotions, control and satiety. I have a hard time with the 12 step idea. Because as much as it says it's not a religious thing, it's constantly referring to Higher Power... etc. etc. etc. Due my naturally contrary nature, I can see that being an obstacle. Also, I'm deeply NOT a spiritual person. It's a thing.
On the only-sort-relevant-to-weight-loss front...
- The kitty knocked my laptop off the end table and broke it.
- My smart phone came in (I'm back on myfitnesspal daily now).
- And I financed a new laptop yesterday - normally not something I do, but since freelance is a source of income, I justified it.
So I'm riding a new technology wave. Do you guys have any favorite apps? C25k? Runtracker?
THIS WEEK...
7 hours of walking (1 hour per day hopefully).
Track Calories
Big Fat Walk It Off Love,
Nanette
Monday, January 21, 2013
Weigh in: Week 3
Weight: 310.3 (+.3)
Waist: 46.5" (-0)
Hydration: 100oz 4/7 days
No White Death: 4/7 days.
Yoga: 2/3 days.
Current Frustration: How fickle my willpower has been. AKA: My ability to take control, to take responsibility and make good choices for my body... FICKLE.
It's not food. It's not situational. It's just that I am incredibly weak at making goals and following through right now. I also know that I have the ability to change that for myself.
My pattern...
Breakfast: The day starts off great. Supplements: E (skin), EFAs (heart), D (mood/energy) and Zinc (immunity). Always a healthy breakfast, Q'ia (buckwheat, hemp, chia) with vanilla almond milk. Throw an apple and and orange in my bag for "hold you over" snacks.
Mid morning. Eat a fruit. Drink a lot of water.
Lunchtime: Keep working.. or commuting. Thinking "I'll grab something when I get off the train." or "I'll take my lunch when it slows down."
Mid afternoon: REALLY hungry. Eat a fruit (blood sugar spike, anyone?). Start contemplating what I'm going to eat when I get home or off work. If I'm at the doc's office (2 days a week), I buy a protein bar. If I'm at kidville, I just bite the bullet. Sometimes the birthday parties at kidville have left over pizza. I'll eat a slice. Or the toppings off a slice when I'm trying to satiate the smart inner person that's already mad at me for the pizza decision.
Dinner: Healthy Decision Day - Eat something from the fridge... salad or tuna sandwich (extra fiber, buckwheat bread) or cottage cheese. Sometimes I'll make a burger or pasta, then feel pride for making something and apathy for the weight I know it will prevent me from shedding.
Most Other Days - Order something in. Sometimes a salad. But too often a sandwich, or pizza.
Post Dinner: Still "hungry," at this point I'm sure I'm just excited to be able to eat. Make a snack. Sometimes a few nuts. Sometimes some cheese. Sometimes the rest of the pizza...
Hour later still... Too full. Drink a bunch of water - probably what I needed about an hour earlier.
I can see where I digress. I can see my rationale. I recognize my laziness. And the morning self gets so mad at me for shifting my accountability mid-day. I recognize that I need to keep focused after 12:00pm and commit to the goals I set for myself.
On the positive side, my trains haven't been working properly so I'm getting 2 miles of walking on Saturdays and Sundays.
GOALS
No ordering in/out. I will prepare all the food that goes in my mouth.
No breads/pastas.
Yoga 3x.
Blog more... it keeps your brain in the game.
And a reminder...
This isn't about anyone but you, Nanette. This is about feeling great. This is about building yourself UP by building positive habits and lifestyle. You will only benefit from these rules and goals. There is NO DOWN SIDE. Stop fighting your own success.
Big Fat STUBBORN Love,
Nanette N.
Waist: 46.5" (-0)
Hydration: 100oz 4/7 days
No White Death: 4/7 days.
Yoga: 2/3 days.
Current Frustration: How fickle my willpower has been. AKA: My ability to take control, to take responsibility and make good choices for my body... FICKLE.
It's not food. It's not situational. It's just that I am incredibly weak at making goals and following through right now. I also know that I have the ability to change that for myself.
My pattern...
Breakfast: The day starts off great. Supplements: E (skin), EFAs (heart), D (mood/energy) and Zinc (immunity). Always a healthy breakfast, Q'ia (buckwheat, hemp, chia) with vanilla almond milk. Throw an apple and and orange in my bag for "hold you over" snacks.
Mid morning. Eat a fruit. Drink a lot of water.
Lunchtime: Keep working.. or commuting. Thinking "I'll grab something when I get off the train." or "I'll take my lunch when it slows down."
Mid afternoon: REALLY hungry. Eat a fruit (blood sugar spike, anyone?). Start contemplating what I'm going to eat when I get home or off work. If I'm at the doc's office (2 days a week), I buy a protein bar. If I'm at kidville, I just bite the bullet. Sometimes the birthday parties at kidville have left over pizza. I'll eat a slice. Or the toppings off a slice when I'm trying to satiate the smart inner person that's already mad at me for the pizza decision.
Dinner: Healthy Decision Day - Eat something from the fridge... salad or tuna sandwich (extra fiber, buckwheat bread) or cottage cheese. Sometimes I'll make a burger or pasta, then feel pride for making something and apathy for the weight I know it will prevent me from shedding.
Most Other Days - Order something in. Sometimes a salad. But too often a sandwich, or pizza.
Post Dinner: Still "hungry," at this point I'm sure I'm just excited to be able to eat. Make a snack. Sometimes a few nuts. Sometimes some cheese. Sometimes the rest of the pizza...
Hour later still... Too full. Drink a bunch of water - probably what I needed about an hour earlier.
I can see where I digress. I can see my rationale. I recognize my laziness. And the morning self gets so mad at me for shifting my accountability mid-day. I recognize that I need to keep focused after 12:00pm and commit to the goals I set for myself.
On the positive side, my trains haven't been working properly so I'm getting 2 miles of walking on Saturdays and Sundays.
GOALS
No ordering in/out. I will prepare all the food that goes in my mouth.
No breads/pastas.
Yoga 3x.
Blog more... it keeps your brain in the game.
And a reminder...
This isn't about anyone but you, Nanette. This is about feeling great. This is about building yourself UP by building positive habits and lifestyle. You will only benefit from these rules and goals. There is NO DOWN SIDE. Stop fighting your own success.
Big Fat STUBBORN Love,
Nanette N.
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