Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Thoughts Through Today's Run

Today I was doing the 3rd day of 2x{3 min run. 1.5 min walk, 5 min run, 2.5 min walk}

And it's the worst I've done. I don't know if it's left over fatigue from the run yesterday? But I wound up walking the last 2 minutes of my running time. It was mainly calf and top of the foot soreness and maybe a little overheating as it's getting warmer and I have a tendency to wither in anything over 60.

The worst part of it were the thoughts running through my head.
"wow, you skip one run."
"maybe you need to take a break."
"you can't take a break, you probably wouldn't start again."
"wouldn't it be nice though, to go back to not having to worry or care about it."
"Might be nice, but you HAVE to keep going. You have to keep running and caring about health."
"ooo feet hurt."
"push through it"
"gotta walk."
"what's wrong with me?! I made it through just fine on Sunday."

I feel like a faker as of late... Fake dieter. Fake exerciser. Is that because some of it is getting easier? Is it because I'm not making as many quality choices? Is it distraction? Am I being worn down by this whole transition thing?

Is this just a transition thing? Am I getting comfortable? I'm not gaining... (well, I am a little but TOM is here and that messes with things). I've even seen losses. Am I beating myself up over nothing? Maybe some of the healthy choices I've worked so hard to make are just becoming easier.

I feel a little resistant to my work outs and my healthy eating as of late. I took a complete hiatus from MFP for three days. I've got a menu that I've never shopped for and a work out list that never made it onto post its as reminders.

Maybe I'm worn out? Maybe I should just be trying to go with the flow these days... since every day seems to be about change and adaptation.

I have to keep losing. I have to. Even if I'm in this "blah don't care" state. I have to keep losing. I need to find my little nugget of motivation and inspiration and pick myself up.

Have any of you guys been stuck in a place similar to this? What's your advice? How'd you get out of the funk?

Big Fat Funked Up Love,


  1. Somtimes you have to fake it til you make it. Just keep doing it, it doesn't have to be fun all the just has to be done.
    Sorry..not real inspirational or uplifting.

    By the have done awesome til now, so negative self talk about minor setbacks and sore feet.

  2. I've been amazed and SO impressed by how hard you've been working in the last few months. Good diet, good plans, tough workouts that put most people to shame. I can only maintain effort like yours for so long before I have to rest a little. It's not failure. It's rest, and your body needs rest sometimes. Often it's when I take a few days off from the hard work that my body lets go of some weight (as long as the eating is good!). PLUS - you're going through a transition now that ranks as one of the top stressors EVER in people's lives.

    I've had a few BAD runs where I couldn't do as much as I did before. Listen to your body. You did the distance. Now pat yourself on the back for finishing it and making today a good day, and move on to the next thing!

  3. I agree with the above posters! I struggle with days where I'm just not feeling it either. I try to go through the motions and just tackle it day by day. I try to look back on the reasons I wanted to do this in the first place (I had a list) and dig deep and get going.

    Good luck!

  4. I'd love to think that I can tell myself: JUST DO IT, but every couple of weeks I find myself easing up on workouts and taking more days off. The fact that you're doing the workouts, walking rather than quitting <---Props.

    If I push myself into exercising through the blah phase, I sometimes start feeling like I don't want to do any more of it, none of it, so I allow myself to have couple of days off from food tracking and give myself days off from exercise. Just a break. Catch up on sleep, get over it and then jump back into the program.

    Maybe with all the stress you've been going through your body needs a little easing up with runs/workouts? Shorter distance? Less frequent? until you get into it again?

  5. Now now Nanette you stop all that negative talk and self doubt. You've come a long way baby, and I just know you'll get day at a time.

  6. The funk will come and go. It always is shocking to me the first time I feel it after being on an exercise/diet high. Accept it and then step left and move forward. You have a lot going on right now and that makes life all jumbled.

    I am with Raeesa, listen to your body. Once the weather heats up and you are in NYC's humidity your body is going to want to give you a fit. Hang in there!

    I am excited for your move! Take care!!

  7. You've got to push through it. There are times when ou do indeed need to take a break or change things up in your routine, but more often than not, you just need to go for it and tell yourself, I'll save the complaining until after my workout! Most probably you'll forget about the complaints and focus on the positive. So you walked a little. You didn't stop. Celebrate your achievements and try to improve next time. You're doing awesome! :)


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